Renew your Spirit

It's been a difficult year, it's time to up the R&R for myself. The crisp mornings  seem to be full of promise. It's time to let go like the trees let go of their leaves and they seem to dance to the ground. Letting go is such a freeing process. This time of year always reminding to, as sad as it sometimes is, to just let go of things that aren't working for you. Wether that be friends you have grown apart from, a relationship that no longer has depth or something as simple as letting go of old clothing. It feels good in the end, somewhere in the middle though I get stuck in the sadness of it all. Why do things have to change? I know... I know... change equals growth and that's fine and all, but just when you get used to something, boom, its gone. I've changed a lot in the last year and it is all for good, I do realize all change is not a bad thing. I have learned the hard way to live in the present and truly enjoy each experience of life as you go through it. So I'm trying to feel this bit of sadness currently and somehow, in the end pull something positive out of it. I get Eyeore-ish  occasionally and absolutely dislike these times because I feel like a big downer! Got to get it out of system though.

As I walk across the crunching leaves I imagine each dream, thought, whatever that is not serving me in my life right now, being crunched up and know it will slowly disintegrate just like those leaves. It almost feels good to let that go. To leave it on the ground in pieces so the wind can blow it away. Im learning to mourn the loss of letting go yet at the same time knowing it feels great to take a heavy weight off of my back.

Beginning something new, going in a different direction, I greatly look forward to. Reinvent yourself, cut your hair, sing out loud or write poems ---- do something to move in a new direction. What will you dare this Autumn?

It's time.

You know it.

Change it up.